July 14, 2005

• xanga

  
  

  is it me?

  
  

  or is like no not an answer for me

  
  

  Kristin a few months ago said she couldn't be in a relationship b/c of school and such.  and i accepted it at first, much like the other person i asked before her and her answer was pretty much the same (yes sad very very very sad).  However unlike her, kristin wasn't someone i could just i don't know how to say it, but i couldn't take no for an answer for some odd reason.  i mean when she couldn't i understood for the first few weeks, then it started to kill me, eat away at me slowly.  and i figured i cannot forget about her, i need to tell her once more, and if it is the same respnose maybe i will take a hint.  but i just got to let her know that this is killing me, and i want the pain to just go away.  we went do disneyland recently and i just loved the day.  just me and her, and it was after finals.  so what better way to go about your day then a day with your best friend.  it was fun and all, we watched the fireworks and such.  i don't know though, i am going to be honest i am just a poor lost soul.  when i see her its crazy, a part of me sees us together, but the other sees the opposite.  i just can't tell about her reaction.  maybe it is just me maybe i should just move on go to school i mean 19 units next yr, will i have time for a gf and all.  sigh but knowing me i don't really care for the 19 units. i mean i'll always push that aside when it comes to my friends and family.  its funny lots of ppl are getting together, or just broken up.  me i am still here sitting on my ass, looking on.  i havent had someone to hold since my god senior yr in high school.  i think i should just tell her and just move on.  if she says yeah, then i will be at a loss for words, b/c kristin is this girl who is litterally one of a kind, if no i just really hope we still can be the best of friends

  
  

  on another note grades will be given out today

  
  

  myke

  • 4:17 am
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