xanga

shoot me now
in the face
then pour acid

reading sucks, paper due the 19th
i am gonna go crazy

myke

xanga

what a week

xanga

getting closer?

i don’t know, but you know me.  I am constiant, always changing my stance on one certain issue. heh

boy am i a nervous wreck

myke

xanga
after consulting with myself and a few of my friendsi realize that i must give up the ship.  Chasing after Kristin must come to a stop.  Although, it would of been nice.  I actually do understand, have been understanding just to ignorant and stupid to realize it.  Right now though, no one really seems to suit me.  lol I figure out that these girls i do seem interested in have a boyfriend already.  Which pretty much sucks since that number went straight down to zero in girls that are available and girls that i have interest in.  Nothin i can do about it though. 
Werid thing is, I think Andini might have a thing for me.  whaaaa.  I treat her like an absolute big sis.  She is very touchy feely, flirtaious and such.  Maybe it is just me.  So all these girl(s) who are apparently interested in me i have no interest in at all. 
Brings back memories when i was really stupid and didn’t know who was interested in me, and now they have boyfriends.  But they are happy with who they are with right now.  so good for them.  what a way to end my birthday huh, and start my semester, eeesh. 
oh well
i am attempting to get over it (or have been or saying i have been)
Its just that people bring up the subject to me, or a classmate says their getting married, or something like that.  I revert back to thinking of her.
that kinda does bug me
since
love is
all around.

myke

xanga
in about 55 minutes or less i shall be celebrate 22 years of incredible youth.
yes i am 22 years young and still kicking
School starts the day after and i cannot wait to find a brand new internship for my studies in the field of education. 
omg to me this birthday thing will just fly over my head again.  Not that its been bad, i mean i had time to celebrate it with friends and family.  its just that . . . the clippers lost today. LOL
Nah, in all seriousness (is that even a word?)  its been great.had a killer semester last semester.  and hoping to do it again this semester.  No Get Set Go album release concert but probably buy the cd as a gift to myself
Funny they released one on my birthday last year.  oooh Every year will be a Get Set Go album release woooo that be friggin awesome.  Listening to sad, depressing, nearly sucidial material in the most up beat mix.So i end this blog by sayin
Go Myke its your birthday!!
myke
P.S. saw the 300 tv spot and it was soooooo coolMarch 9th!!!!

Xanga

ok this blog is definately long over due.
so happy new year readers. i am back or have been back since dec 31. i left on the 24th to visit my sick aunt so seemed to feel a whole lot better when i visited. My mom and myself definately spoiled her to the max by cooking her food and not letting her eat any of the hopsital food. Driving there is insane. It took me a second trip to Holland to finally realize that. At a four way stop sign apparently you are suppose to let the person to the right of you go first. Which is kinda confusing since the person to the right of them could also be the one to go first and so on and so on. Also bicyclists have the right of way. for them they have a special zone on the sidewalk for them to bike. Me not knowing this very important fact was nearly clipped by a biker in her 60s! go figure. Also parking is very small and tight. We could not find parking for about an hour. Yes this is a span of one day. You learn alot in one day. lol
I get back to my cousins house and tried to watch Grey’s Anatomy on ABC.com. And wouldn’t ya know it. I can’t. Once again people give me the information before i try and miserbly fail. I had some intersting food. I had some thumper, some bambi, some pumbaa, and steak. Lets just say i do not have a hunter’s tastebuds. So my aunt was happy we were there to visit. I also fell in love with the “TOM TOM”. Yes the “Tom Tom” is the coolest thing since sliced bread. I brought my Barrack Obama book with me. The guy is pretty intelligent. He definately reminds me of a JFK. So i need to finish that hopefully by early Feb. Initally i was aiming toward this week, but once again laziness kicked in. So basically i could not watch any of my dvds.  THey had a portable one that could play mine, but my aunt had it.  ARGH!!! so YouTube was cool.  I watched Will Ferrell and his Celeberty Jeopardy skits, movie trailers, Chad Vader Episode five and the Chad Vader Xmas Special.  Also watched the Saddam hanging.  and some Family Guy stuff.  Oh They have South Park here sooo that was cool.  No futurama though.  sob sob
So I had a b-day party with my friends yesterday, and one with the parentials and the “big sis” today. which was great. Great gifts. Was surpirsed again by Kristin’s gift. got Dinosaurs on DVD lol.
today i got a Zeno videoipod player from andie. and gift cards from Barnes and Noble and itunes. Which will be put to good use.

anyways. My dad has been bugging me to go out with this one girl we saw at my grandpa’s baptism. Which also happened over the time i was suppose to blog. But yeah, he’s been bugging me about that. lol actually it is one of my resoultions. Just to get out more into the dating scene. It been nice. Also finish the books i actually read for fun. Get my exercise goin. and be more productive and go the extra mile on a few things learn how to surf, and learn how to skim board properly.

well that’s it. other than that i start school on the 17th a day after my birthday.
ugh. I wanna go to the GET SET GO album release party in LA!! bleeh!

myke
P.S. America get crackin and put up a Spider-Man 3 tv spot
sooo lazy Japan already has a tv spot! and it is sooooooooooooooooooooo…oooooooooooooooo cool!

xanga,

so i am almost done with school. the only class i need to worry about is bio 101 thats it. a little brushing up on the modern poetry and that’ll be it.

its incredible that we are already entering the last days of 06. Through wars, scandal, celeb divorce, and UCLA kicking USC’s ass, it has been one incredible year.
This semester was somewhat hard, but at the same time i think i made it that way. But all in all i think i did well. and we will see in a few weeks.
My aunt has been sick lately and i guess my mom will give me the news about going to Holland or not after my finals.
The only thing i could ever want of course is that infamous L-O-V-E.
other than that its all good for me.

myke

xanga

back and forth go my feelings toward kristin. I am very much lost with the fact that i do or don’t like her. I seriously don’t know what to do anymore but kill myself. it drives me crazy thinking about her so much, when in fact i know beyond a shadow of a soubt that she doesn’t feel the same. But what is this ugly gut feeling that makes me feel differently. There hasn’t been anybody that i could just feel so well alive with.
no seriously i cannot find anyone else that makes me smile like the way she makes me smile.
god i just want to shoot myself sometimes.
almost everybody i know has a girlfriend and i am just being left out in the dust. it driving me nuts
ARGHHH
can i shoot myself now
please

myke

xanga

so i am just sitting here watching love actually
thinking of what to write down for my litearary critisim paper
Love actually will not actually help me with this paper since it is on feminism

Having said that
i have had no inspiration what so ever. Once again Hugh Grants character reminds me a bit of myself
since i cannot say the right things when i want to, and when i want to it isn’t at the right time which is me infront of a mirror or a wall.
Screaming at myself saying WTF you idiot.

So writing this paper is a problem, calling people hasn’t helped. I tried to jump from sided to side in very small strides and that hasn’t provided any inspiration.

i necessarily can’t scream out now b/c it is near midnight and i don’t want to wake anyone.

i stared up for around 4 hours trying to think of what and why a woman wouldn’t want to marry or date a man that is given to them. they want to date who they want to date or marry who they want to mmarry.
it seems to simple yet i want to expand on that. Make it more elaborate. Shinier than such a mediocore product. I want to be able to sell it. make it like gold.
Maybe i am asking to much from myself.
just maybe. do you fellow readers think i am asking to much of myself for making a simple paper much more polished and grander. i mean it is only a proposal

well i feel like throwing myself over a bridge now
can i do that tommorow afternoon please

myke

xanga

a little easy breathing for me.  I got a 47/50 on my Literary Criticism paper.  So now i have to work on my art project; it has to do something with the enviroment and how to change it.  werid.  So i am making a tree with nuclear power thingies on the bottom then cars as the body and other hazardous stuff as the leaves.  He wants to be enviromentally friendly or something i guess.  lol i would of done another lyric book, but i guess that wouldn’t be productive or fun now would it.  Tommorow i have all day to work on things, and knowing me i probably would take the lazy appoarch and not do anything, but i seriously have to get cracking and do my hw and other projects. 

so Kristin and i are really cool now.  Why i keep saying this i don’t know.  we’ve always been great and happy as friends.  but still the idea of us being a couple still lingers in hte back of my mind. 

I love “bones” by the killers btw.

Lakers lost

I think my fantasy team rocks

I got

Chris Paul at PG
Richard Hamliton at SG
Jason Kidd at G
Peja Stojakovic at SF
Udnois Haslem at PF
Mike Miller at F
Marcus Camby at C
Chris Kamen at C
Vince Carter at Ult
Elton Brand at Ult
Chris Wilcox on the BN
Sam Cassel on the BN
Ben Gordon on the BN

and that is my private league team
anywhos work all day tommorow
and play all day tuesday lol
ttyl

myke