xanga

so the last MKM hang out of the summer was yesterday.  they’ll be more just after the trip.

we went to see POTC: DEAD MAN’S CHEST. both me and chey would have seen it twice and kristin four times.  reminds me of me when i see Spider-Man.  (HERRRO LOL)  so it was fun.  i love that movie.  we stayed through the whole credits and minor spoiler, the dog wasn’t eaten.  it was respected as a god. which means it will be eaten.  or will it.  i decided online if the first one had one.  they said the  monkey picked up one of the coins which is why it is undead.  end of minor spoilers lol.  so we went to downtown disney.  it was still hot and sticky even though it was overcast.  we walked around and window shopped and such.  i heard the violinist that kristin raves about.  seems cool.  i don’t think i’ll put it on my ipod but, he’s cool.  i think most people with a musical instrument talent is good. i mean there are singers and rappers, some and i use that word lighty some have talent.  but if you can use an instrument mostly, that is true talent.  Currently my patience with the gutiar is running low.  my fingers won’t do what they are suppose to do.  ugh.  so we went to the world of disney and i saw a pluto, chip and dale ben bag pillow. (FALLS IN LOVE WITH IT)  those are my characters i fell in love with.  but 18 dollars. i think i’ll wait until another tutoring session. 

we continued to walk around and such. we then ate at torilla jos, it was still hot by then.  and i think that just killed the mood,  but it was my last day for mkm so i just wanted to see them before my trip.  anyways, the food was okay.  i definately had better thats all i know

we then went out for ice cream, and it was fun.  i noticed somethin though, talkin to kristin, i get these werid things goin on. i shake, or i grab my side or somethin like that.  very weird.  but w/e.  we had a good talk. too,

so we ended the day with a talk at de ruma and had some fun with benji.

Everyone enjoy your rest of the summer, and i’ll be back Aug 20th. in case any of you were wondering

myke

xanga

lately the little ones have been curin the aliments of lonliness lol.  to bad they are leaving tommorow

sob sob lol. i’ll miss them sayin unlca mike can we go here or there.  feel kinda bad i couldn’t take them to dland.  next time they come here i know i will take them.

so anyways.  euro trip coming soon.  somewhat happy, we aren’t going to germany which makes me even happier.  so anyways i am off to europe soon in a matter of days i’ll be away from Cali, far away from the thoughts of school (CRAP THEY STILL DO NOT HAVE BOOKS!!)

but i’ll have fun

so anyways thats it

bye bye

myke

xanga

feel kinda crushed

feel kinda sad

feel somewhat lost

but i know that everything will be fine

help is always there, and i know i can turn to any of you for it.

myke

xanga

well it is me again, i guess that means xanga is back and fully running

i hung out with melinda who gave me some good advice yesterday, and i probably needed it.  it was somewhat  better to hear something like that then the usual stuff i was hearing, even though it was what i wanted to hear, i always love to hear the other side of the fence.  So something like that made me realize that i shouldn’t go through with it, and just be happy and with what i have right now.  I am glad i have such a great friendship and i should learn to apperiacate that more than what i really want.  I like the whole 3 musketeers thing we got goin on, its a real fun thing, and i think with me goin out with her would make it hard. even if we did break up or have problems our lil tight unit would be broken and cease to exist

so thank you melinda, doesn’t mean i will stop wishin, it just means i have a real new prespective and that i should apppericate what i have right in front of me.

myke

xanga

so i talked to vicky not to long ago.  it was a good talk, she was in class and all.  haven’t spoken to her in such a long time.  I feel so bad not hanging out with her, and promising her that i would take her to indo food, however with the semester closing in, i think that is not possible but who knows.  anywhos we talked she wanted to know if i was in irvine yet and such.  and whenever iwas in irvine that we would have to hang out.  I do miss her actually, she is really one of the few i kept in touch with since 03.  i told her about kristin and such.  she said you are a patient person.  really nice etc etc.

see i think it sucks for me, that i try to find someone and it ends up not how i want it.  but this is different usually guys get over it real quickly i admitt i was one of them, but kristin, almost a year and a half later since i told her i liked her and she shot me down, i still have feelings for her.  i don’t care how long i have to wait anymore.  there will never be anyone like her,  i haven’t met a single person who is like her.  

one way i see it i would wait, but then if something happens i would always regret it, i do do something and she doesn’t like it, then i would always regret it. 

so that is my story, before i fly off to Europe.

 myke

xanga

well i just hung out with you know who.  the person i always babble about.  such an amazing person.  one person who turns my fingers into thumbs and makes my brain turn off.  my vowels turn into consentents.  yes her. during those three hours, i realized a few

1.  i have a really great thing here.  no matter what i never want that friendship to end. so i do not want to ruin what i have with her.  b/c this happened to me a few years ago.  so now, i do not want it to ever happen again.  

2.  she isn’t really ready.  she really seem school oriented.  (whether that is her real reason or not remains to be seen)

3. i will still think of her as someone i could possibly see as  someone i could love.  for a few reasons.  i just don’t see anyone else the same way i do her.  no matter where i go or who i see even if it is a new person, i could never see that girl the way i do her.

seems very childish doesn’t it, that it is kinda silly or something like a phase, but i don’t know something about her seems very magical that it almost makes me want to cry.  in the end i just have to be very patient and very presitent.  b/c deep down i know i do like her.

thank you all for supporting me

myke

xanga

i failed again at what i wanted to do.  but that is not new of course.  i seem to be an expert at failing what i want to acomplish, and it seems like to say a few simple words and yet i still fail at it

if i don’t get this thing off my mind before the trip i don’t know what will happen

myke

xanga

so melinda and i went to a little apartment warming party hosted by Amy and (crazy) Abbey.  it was sorta cool.  on the drive there we talked about chey and her, and then it went back to kristin and I.  It was a good talk actually, i told her about why i went to the beach and such with a couple of buddies of mine, to hopefully find someone and get her off my mind, yet that failed.  Kristin was still on my mind.  so we would talk about that later.  We would have some pick up stixs and some yourgrtland stuff (hey 30 cents an ounce, you can’t go wrong there).  then it was off to AMy’s party

At Amy’s party there was a couple of people i knew and those that i didn’t  some people remembered me, some i don’t remember, and some don’t even remember me, but thats cool.  Janet, Flo, and Kent were the only ones i actually remembered.  So Melinda and i had a couple to drink, it was fun.  Me and Andy had this werid sit competetion.  i think i was trailing but he stopped once or twice were as I kept on going.  After that i watched a drinking game and found out flo and Janet were Jamie Cullum fans (WHOOOOO).  Fellow Jamie Cullum fans, and Flo told me that she had the green profile Jamie Cullum myspace.  So it was cool.  Abbey got really crazy and stepped on my foot a couple of times, even fell on top of me.  so after one glass of champage Melinda and i left. 

we would talk again about kristin and how it probably is or isn’t meant to be, you will never know.  sometimes it is the chase, but you will never know until you try.

so after that drive, i reminded melinda about her party and she said she would definately be there

anyways thats about it

time to eat

myke

xanga

so i am seeing kristin this week, after her camping trip with the family.  it will be cool to see her, not only that i get to see her pals, the ones i was suppose to see on the birthday party but didn’t lol.  but that’s cool.  i can’t wait to see her.  like that has changed. 

since then, hanging out with melinda.  hey i just thought of this, it is like i am missin someone, and melinda is missin someone lol.  so we just hang out with each other until our friends come back home lol.  wow.  but we saw superman returns,  i thought i was watching the old 80s films, but much more refurbished.  melinda was shocked to waster 14 bucks on a huge bucket of popcorn and 2 large sodas lol.  she got me a nice polo for all those times i drove and got lost lol.  so then monday was bland i just answered a bunch of questions on Yahoo! answers.  so then july forht we had a bbq, melinda stopped by and melinda, benji and i watched the fireworks, and just talked.

so now wensday and thrusday was boring, so today is friday and i am already at 10000+ points anyways tommorow irvine trip to a party

myke