October 12, 2005
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xnaga
well three blogs in a row, and tommorow is a final. sigh i am going to berkely this friday, and i will be seeing an old friend who i had feelings for. Its been such a long time since i last saw her. I don't know what i will say when i do visit her. We've talked via e-mail, iming and cell phone. and i wanted to visit her everytime i got the chance but unexpected projects and work held me back. now that i have this midterm break i am just going to go up there and visit her. I have already told her i would and i am visiting another friend there too. But my main concern is will the feelings i had for her come back and haunt me. will we still be friends. i never felt so scared to meet someone i haven't seen in such a long time.
Now that i think about it, not being in a relationship isn't as bad. Just that empty feeling so far i kind of want to fill that empty void i have inside of me. It would be nice to be with someone heh. I laugh at the fact that i am so contradictory to this issue. But so far i am very happy with the decision i made with me and kristin. just to be friends.
So i am listening to Enrie Halter and Jupiter Sunrise great mellowed out music and sing out my feelings
time to study like crazy again
smell ya laters
myke
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